Contemplating suicide

I've only been in Boston for 21 hours and I'm already stressed and not enjoying the plurality of my responsibilities. It's not fun to be on call all day or to have to remember a zillion things. If it doesn't get better, or at least lead to good results, I might commit suicide. Don't worry, not the physical kind. Rather, social suicide or leadership suicide. I know it would burn people, but at a certain point, I've gotta say no, even if I said yes before. I love everything I do - the problem is in the doing.

Unfortunately, I think leadership suicide is mostly a pipe dream. My sense of commitment and responsibility is too great for me to back out of commitment.